Save Tonight

Go on and close the curtains cause all we need is candle light
You and me and a bottle of wine going to hold you tonight
Well we know I'm going away and how I wish, I wish it weren't so
So take this wine and drink with me let's delay our misery

Save tonight and fight the break of dawn
Come tomorrow tomorrow I'll be gone
Save tonight and fight the break of dawn
Come tomorrow tomorrow I'll be gone

There's a log on the fire and it burns like me for you
Tomorrow comes with one desire to take me away it's true
It ain't easy to say goodbye darling please don't start to cry
Cause girl you know I've got to go, oh Lord I wish it wasn't so

Save tonight and fight the break of dawn
Come tomorrow tomorrow I'll be gone
Save tonight and fight the break of dawn
Come tomorrow tomorrow I'll be gone

Tomorrow comes to take me away I wish that I, that I could stay
Girl you know I've got to go, oh Lord I wish it wasn't so

Save tonight and fight the break of dawn
Come tomorrow tomorrow I'll be gone
Save tonight and fight the break of dawn
Come tomorrow tomorrow I'll be gone
Save tonight and fight the break of dawn
Come tomorrow tomorrow I'll be gone

Save tonight and fight the break of dawn
Come tomorrow tomorrow I'll be gone tomorrow
I'll be gone tomorrow
I'll be gone tomorrow
I'll be gone tomorrow
I'll be gone

Save tonight
Save tonight
Save tonight
Save tonight

love in 2008

I went to see my boy this weekend.

he made me a toaster strudel with the icing shaped like a heart in the middle.
he would reach for my hand.
wrap his arm around me at night when we were asleep.

this weekend was wonderful
when he said "we" it made my weekend.

i love him so much, and as this weekend has already showed it can only grow more this year and the years to come.

nicci

Elsewhere

love the time and in between
The calm inside me
In this space where I can breathe
I believe there a distance I have wandered
To touch upon the years
Reaching out and reaching in
Holding out holding in I believe
This is heaven to no one else but me
And I'll defend it long as I can be left here to linger in silence
If I chose to would you try to understand

Oh the quiet child awaits the day when she can break free
The mold that clings like desperation
Oh mother don't you see I've got
To live my life the way I feel is right for me,
Say it's not right for you
But it's right for me

I believe This is heaven to no one else but me
And I'll defend it long as I can be left here to linger in silence
If I chose to would you try to understand

-bethany joy lenz
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i love this song. and i am learning how to play it on the piano, i just really like it.

Window to my Past

my window shows you me
from the outside looking in
please don’t wipe the smudges so you can see
these painful memories are a key part of me
it hard to remember sometimes, so i allow the smudges to remain
the smudges make me, only me not you

i touch beauty
its in my grasp
you cant change my past
what i felt was the truth
rough
raw
pain
no matter how hard you scrub
the smudges still make me, me

i hear a voice
i listen
its your voice
your words made me light on my toes
but i learn from my mistakes

i turn straining to block our your
lies
laughter
crys
your voice belongs to my window, my past

i smell a cool fall day
the scent of your arms wrapped around me
this smell makes me sick and weak
the smell is definite, permanent
stained in my window
i wouldn’t change any of this
i couldn't change any of this
my window lets me and everyone see me
the past and present contained in the glass
whomever i meet decides if they will focus on the intricacy of me or the memories that make me.

nicci.

Can you hold all my dreams?

the winter sky

so deep and so blue.

it looks like if you stare at it too hard it just might crack

if you throw all your dreams at it... it will shatter into a million tiny pieces.

i really like the winter sky.

Is it possible

is it possible to try to hard sometimes.

is it possible ?

Passion.

And he (Chris Belcher) is my world. my whole world. if i had just one thing to say to him. i would tell him to smile for me always because if i could just see him smile the way he smiles for me i would be content for the rest of my life.

When he smiles at me, hes smiling for me, i cant explain it. when he smiles he makes me feel beautiful, makes me feel like no one can. he shows me passion and is passion and there is no way to explain how he makes me feel or how much joy and passion and love he has brought to my life, He makes me believe in love. He is love.

i thank him for sharing his life with me, and for letting me share my life with him. He truly is my world. when everything else falls apart i know i can count on him. i know he is the one i can depend on. and it feels good to know i have that. it feels good to know i have someone who i can trust like that.

I am glad we happened. And ARE happening.